"Titanic", the movie for the first time
(☆This article includes spoilers, so visit the article again after watching Titanic if you care about spoilers.)
The other day, I saw "Titanic" for the first time in my life. Frankly, It was wonderful and heartbreaking. To be honest, at first, I kept avoiding this movie because it was so famous. I have this bad habit of avoiding popular movies for no particular reason. However my mother recommended Titanic strongly, so I decided to see it.
First, the famous scene that Jack held Rose at the nose of the ship, was so beautiful but that didn't make me cry. What made me cry was the scene that the music band decided to play their instruments till the end, the scene the designer of Titanic would decide to remain in the ship, the scene Jack sank in the sea, and the last scene the photo of Rose and horse was shown the screen!! I was very moved, so I was dazed(放心状態) after watching this movie.
I learned from Titanic, the one important thing was not money or class, but love. And I also learned that I should watch famous movies without avoiding them. They are not just famous. They are famous because they are worth watching, I think.
That's all today, thank you!
The College Entrance Exam
The other day, I took the college entrance exam, so I'll tell you about that. I took the exam of three subjects, English, Japanese, and Japanese history.
To be frank, as for English, Reading is awesome, but Listening is terrible. I was so confident about my English listening skill, so I'm very disappointed now.
Japanese is also horrible,,, and Japanese history too, of course, but I don't care so much. Even if there is anybody who had a bad score like me, they don't have to mind it for a long time, I think. Why am I encouraging other people...? Oh well. Anyway, my test was like that.
The exam that I took already was called 共通テスト(前: センター試験), though I have no idea how I can say that in English. I still have two regular exams for private college at least. If I can't pass both of them, I may take another exam. I don't feel like giving up entering college this year. I'll never give up. Nailed it! (I wanted to use this phrase someday.)
Bye✋
What makes Japanese so difficult
Some people say Japanese is one of the most difficult languages. I agree with it.
First, unlike English, there are three kinds of character types, Kanji(漢字), Hiragana(ひらがな), and Katakana(カタカナ). That's a difficult point. We had to memorize so many Japanese letters when we were children. Hiragana and Katakana have already 100 characters, besides, Jouyou-Kanji(常用漢字) that we use in daily life, has 2136 characters!! Of course, we don't memorize all, but the number is too much, right? Moreover, one Kanji does not always have only one way to read. Some Kanji have a lot of ways to read. So, memorizing Japanese letters is hard.
The second reason why Japanese is so difficult to learn is that people hardly mention the subject(主語). When you speak in English, you must say subject except for imperative form, but people in Japan don't say subject every time. Therefore, the Japanese language tends to be confusing for people from abroad.
The third reason is that there is much onomatopoeia(オノマトペ). For instance, ”しーん(shi-n)” or, "ゴロゴロ(goro-goro)." "shi-n" means silent, and "goro-goro" means sounds of thunder. I often hear that it's hard for foreign people to learn onomatopoeia. To learn it, living in Japan for a time is the only way I think...
So, that's all today!! See you later.
My favorite Youtuber
Recently, I have a lot of spare time cause I'm not going to school, so I devote most of my time watching Youtube.
Today, I will introduce my favorite Youtube channel, "Kevin's English Room / 掛山ケビ志郎" !! This channel is really fun. On this channel, there are three guys. The main person is, as you can guess, Kevin. Kevin is an American who can speak Japanese. The second person is Kake-chan(かけちゃん). Kake-chan is introduced as a normal Japanese in the introduction of the video. That means he can hardly speak English, and his English skill is as much as general Japanese. The last person is Yama-chan(やまちゃん). Yama-chan can speak English almost completely. He can also speak French and can speak Japanese, of course.
This channel's good point is their friendship, anyway. Especially, my favorite video is 「【腹筋崩壊注意】アメリカの童謡を歌ってみたら爆笑のゲームが生まれました」. Let me explain it. They sing "Old Macdonald had a farm," which is an American children's song, maybe you know, but in this video, they imitate various people instead of pigs, cows, and so on. For example, they sing, "Old Macdonald had a farm E-I-E-I-O. And on his farm, he had a Masuo-san(マスオさん) E-I-E-I-O." Masuo-san is a Japanese anime character, so the next player has to imitate Masuo-san instead of singing Oink, Oink (the sound that pigs make) or Moo, Moo (the sound that cows make). I thought it would work easily at first, but... You should check it out.
They also have a music channel on Youtube. I like it too cause all the guys sing very well. I think the number of subscribers will grow. Besides Youtube, they do TikTok, PodCast on Spotify, Instagram, and Twitter. In PodCast, Kevin and Yama-chan speak only in English, so you can learn English while listening.
So, that's all today, bye-bye!!
The feelings about the first day joining DAY-CARE
I went to the day-care which I introduced you the other day.
You may think, "why do you go there?". So, I answer the question.There are three main reasons.
First, currently I don't meet or talk with any people except my family.It's a big problem, you know. Man can't live alone. Man can't live without interacting with others.
Second, I get up at 11 AM, and I go to sleep at 1 AM.Defenitly my normal sleep pattern has changed. It's also a big problem.
Third, I thought that the environment where are a lot of people who know I am Schizophrenia around me is good, right? if Schizophrenia developped again, day-care's people can notice that soon.
From these reasons, I decided to apply the day care.
Frankly speaking, day-care was so fun! I worried about at first cause I am the youngest in the daycare, but it was no worries. It was fun.
What I did in the day-care on the first day is drawing pictures. I can draw anything, so I drew a picture of Snow White.
I haven't told you we have a schedule each week. For example, Monday is drawing pictures, Tuesday is doing a yoga,,, like this. And I have to go day-care twice a week at least.
(...Oh, I got tired to think in English...)
So, that's all today.
Thank you for reading, catch you later!! Bye.
精神科閉鎖病棟あるある
前のツイッター垢でたくさんいいねもらった精神科の閉鎖病棟あるあるやります。
解放病棟や普通の入院でも共感できるところがあるかもしれません。
私の病院ではこんなだったよーってだけです。共感できなかったらごめんなさい。笑
- スマホなどの電子機器は持ち込み禁止
これは閉鎖病棟ならではですね。これにより外界との関係はホールにあるテレビだけになります。閉鎖病棟にいる人は基本的に症状が重い人だったり急性期で緊急入院した人ばかりなのでこれは当然ですね。
- 常にだれかが廊下を徘徊している
電子機器がないのですることがないです。ほかの患者さんと話しながら、またはひとりで廊下を徘徊して時間をつぶす人がたくさんいます。わたしの病棟ではおばさん５，６人のグループがいつも徘徊していました。
- やらかすと保護室行き
なにか問題を起こしたり暴れたりすると「危険」とみなされて看護師さん8人くらいに囲まれて保護室へ連行されます。このような興奮状態の患者さんは他傷だけでなく自傷もしかねないので、そのまま拘束されることもあります。
- 病棟に入るときに荷物確認やボディーチェックがある
これは病状がよくなって病棟外に出られた方ならわかると思いますが、棟外から棟内に戻るときに荷物確認などがあります。電子機器はもちろんのこと、鋭利なものや長いひもなど自傷行為につながる可能性のあるものがあった場合ここで没収されます。同じ理由から、OT(作業療法)などでせっかく作ったミサンガなども退院まで没収されます。
- 若い人が少ない
私のところは若い人が少なかったです。私が一番若くて一人だけ10代で、20代のひとが一人いましたがあとは40代以降の方が90パーセントくらいを占めていました。
- OTはだいたい塗り絵とミサンガ
だけってわけではないですが、笑。棟内の作業療法は塗り絵とミサンガ、パズル、チェスくらいしかできるものがないです。棟外OTとかになれば革細工などより高度なものをすることがができました。
- とにかく暇
とにかくすることがないです。次のご飯までどう時間をつぶそう、作業療法終わったら何しよう、、みたいな生活が続きます。ほかの患者さんと「暇ですねー」って会話を何度したことか。ずっと早く退院したいって思ってました。
- 看護師さんの名前を網羅しがち
これも暇ゆえの行動だったりしますね。看護師さんとはたくさんかかわるので名前を知っとく必要があります。一部の看護師さんとすごい仲良くなったりします。
最後に、私の入院中の一日の生活を紹介します。
見えにくいな、、
平日はOTがあるんですけど、土日はないんですよね。だからめっちゃ暇でした。
あ、あとこれ、お風呂も毎日は入れないんです。たくさんの患者さんがいるのでお風呂は週3回でした。
暇な時間はじゃあ何をしていたかというと、無駄にお茶を汲みに行ったり、廊下を歩いてみたり、寝たり、、、って感じです。
以上、閉鎖病棟あるあるでした！
なんか書き忘れてる気がするけれど思い出したらまた書きます。
デイケアの見学に行った
先日、通院中の病院のデイケアに見学に行ってきました。
まだ入るかは決めていませんが、どんな感じなのか見るだけ見たのでその様子を話したいと思います。
まずデイケアとは何かーデイケアとはグループ活動への参加で社会生活に必要な力をつける場所です。
特に私のところは就労、復学、進学など社会復帰を目指す通過型で、目標を達成して必ず卒業しなければならないデイケアです。
私は今学校にも通っていなく日中全くと言っていいほど活動していないので、生活リズムを整える意味でも、と母からデイケアを勧められました。
具体的にどんなことをやるのかというと、作業療法や運動、心理教育、自主活動などです。
見学の日は庭で園芸をやっていました。参加してもいいし、しなくてもいいです。
デイケアにはいろいろな部屋がありました。
フィットネスルームや和室、テレビとソファーのある部屋、調理室、ホール、中庭、音楽スタジオなどなど。過去の他の患者さんの作品などが飾ってありましたが、とても上手でした。
油絵や書道、折り紙などが飾ってありました。
見学してみて、、
・楽しそうだし最低週二日なら続けられそう。
・一番年齢が若いこと、年齢の近い人がいないことが不安。 って感じですね。
すごいわがままですが、18歳女の私からしたら、年の離れた男の人にじっと見られたのが少し怖かったです。
入院中もずっとそんな感じだったのでそれを思い出しました。
そこがすごく悩みどころで、年が離れた人ばかりで打ち解けられるかわからないのも怖いです。
年近い人のとこ行きたかったら学校行けばいいじゃんって思いますよね！！
ぐうの音も出ません！
ということで、デイケアの本申し込みは出そうかどうするか悩んでいます。
今回も読んでくださりありがとうございました。
